Untuk yang bernama...WANITA - copy from Melly

"Ketika aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa.

"Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia; namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan "

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya "

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh "

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya
untuk melindungi hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu "

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk diteteskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan pada waktu bila pun ia diperlukan."

"Kau LELAKI tahu...
Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya,
susuk badan yang ditampilkan, atau bilaman ia menyisirkan rambutnya."

"Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, karena itulah pintu hatinya - tempat dimana cinta itu ada."


Yours Truly =)

L.O.S.T.

That's what I felt right now.. Have you??? how did you find your way back.. how did you heal.. how did you deal with it... Should I or shouldn't I?? *sigh*


Yours Truly =)

On the Move

My research back at Kuala Krau, Pahang is due anytime. Once I am finish its mean that I will move back to KL permanently for a few months. This is cuz I will have to do the data analysis and writing for my thesis. Its a good thing at the same time cuz its mean that I am going to finish my study very2 soon and yet....... only God knows why!! I am still not sure whether my application to be transfered to KL permanently to my boss is accepted or not. But I do hope I will...

Another trouble is finding a new house. All this while I was staying at my brother's house. I wanted to get my own since I am here back in 2007 but he didn't allow me. But now I have better reason cuz he's married and he got to live his own life now. He doesn't need me to do the household chores for him anymore. but, I can't just let him on his own. I will still do my responsibility as his sister. I will do come back and check up on him and his wife. He is still my family after all. Finding a new house in KL area is not easy, finding a roomate is not easy as well. You might get what you want, a happy set of roomate and housemate or the Grumpy Old-Nanny. So, Debbie.. here is the option. Do you want to move in with me? hahahhahha...

Anyway, I'll talk more on this on the nexy post. I still have a lot in mind but still not sure about it. Till then...

Yours Truly =)

Update : for the silent months

I am sorry that I didn't manage to update this blog of mine frequently.Still very busy with my MSc because I am a bit behind the schedule. BUt I promise that once I am done, I'll be back to this blogging world again.

Here are some of the update;

Was back to my hometown last month for my brother's wedding. He was the first one in my siblings to get married. And guess what, the guests during the wedding is more than 4 thousand. We were so damn tired for working non-stop in order to make sure that the wedding runs perfectly. But we had fun too. will try to upload the photos next time as I am using someone laptop right now.

Last week I was at Fraser's Hill, doing the International Bird Race. Its the first time that I join it. I do have fun but somehow I am not satisfied on how they categorize the participants. Come on guys, I am a novice. I've never join the event before. Even if I am working with a wildlife conservation based company, it doesn't mean that I am an expert for every single animals. If I knew that this gonna be like that, i'll ID more and work harder. Bu I was there only to have fun, but yet you guys destroy the fun part. Bu I'll come back again next year. And this time if you put in me the advance group again, I'll fight for the prize. I'll do more work. I'll ID more birds. You watch me doing it.

Yesterday, I was at the University. Presenting part of my MSc research results. I was so nervous because to me my result haven't shows anything clearly. But at least I realize that and understand my research very well. It turn out that my presentation was better than some of the PhD students. Come on guys, you choose the research and yet you don't know why you do it.. why do PhD at the firts place? So I am quite satisfied with my research and presentation. My supervisor is happy too. I know he is proud of me because I know that I have some quality that some people didn't want to realize it and take me for granted. I can be very weak but when I found my strength, no one can defeat me. Believe me.

Anyway, I am heading back to the research centre soon. Will loook forward to update again next time. I am so losing my blogging skills here. I can't even write well anymore... this could be the lamest post ever... Hahahhaha

Yours Truly =)

Home.. Here I come

Will be going home for a short trip.. its my brother's wedding. I can't wait to go home. I miss my siblings and my mum and my dad and my grandmas... And the home cooked meal. Gosh! I miss everything about home.. But its gonna be a real pain in my heart too cuz I know everyone will probably ask 1 question. which is WHEN IS MY TURN TO GET MARRIED??? shitty lah like this. I am gonna screw those who ask me that particular question and tear them apart... HAHAHAHHA..

However, I am looking forward going back home. The last time I went back is during the Raya. Thats few months back.. Off now, need to get few stuff to bring home...



Yours Truly =)

Breaking the Silence

Dear Friends,

I am sorry for the long silence. I know some of you are and still waiting for my updates. And again I am sorry for that. I am just going thru some difficult phase in life and handling it now. Don't worry too much cause I am gonna be fine. I hope. And thanks for being there when I needed you the most. You know who you are, dear friends. Love you all.

Yours Truly =)

SEPI

Bisikku pada bulan..
Kembalikan temanku..
Kekasihku..
Syurgaku..
Tanpa dia malam menemaniku..
Sepi memelukku..
Bulan jangan biar siang..
Biar alam ni kelam..
Biar ia sepi sepertiku.

Yours Truly =)

My Birthday was 4 days ago..

And I am celebrating it alone in my rented house somewhere in Pahang. And I think this is the first time I've celebrating it alone.

Yours Truly =)

Family Affairs

My family is coming to KL tomorrow. The whole family. So I am gonna be quite busy entertaining them. And having my own cuti-cuti Malaysia as well. I hope after the holidays everything will be back to normal. No more miserable me, no more super sensitive me, no more fragile me but only the old me. OMG! I missed the old me. The one who use to have fun and laugh and just enjoying my life. But when the new me emerged from somewhere, I've become someone else. I am not so fun anymore. I am not so happy anymore. And now I just didn't want to put the blame to anyone.

back to the main topic, I am not quite sure whee we are heading. Bt it would be all around Peninsular Malaysia for sure. So, I am looking forward for them to come. Cheers everyone, I am going off to KL.

Yours Truly =)

To all My Best Girls

When the world made no sense
When the gravity was pulling me way down
When living & breathing was such a burden to me
Never once you went away
Never once you let me go astray
And for that I thank thee
For this friendship eternally
For being that driving force
The strong inspiring source
For making me wanting to live
For making me wanting to believe
That world isn't such a bad place
When I’m so blessed with your grace

p.s : Found it from someone blog. Thanks to her.

Yours Truly =)